Doubt

Have you every had one of those days where you analyze your life and say "So, this is my life" (not enthusiasticly)? You start to wonder "Is this what it's all about?" and "What was supposed to be so exciting about waking up for work, coming home, cooking dinner, and going to bed 5 days out of the week?" Do you have an answer? I don't.

I don't have these days as often as I used to, but they still creep up on me every once in a while. I'm not a person that likes routine. I get bored and want to run the other way. I've done this my whole life. If it's not challenging then it's a waste of my time, I could be sleeping for crying out loud! When these days tap me on my shoulder like a sneaky little varmit I think "Not you again... go away!!" The only good thing about one of these days is that when I start to analyze my situation I realize all of the blessings that God has given me. The things I don't deserve, but yet I have them anyways. So, I guess good things come out of "those days" after all even if they weren't intended for that.